MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS
MY LIFE IN A PRISON WITH INVISIBLE WALLS

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 78

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If you ask a school boy about the ideal life ... that is one without homework and very long vacations. The summer vacation is the ideal time for them ... but still one day the autumn is coming. If you ask an employe in a corporation about the ideal life ... he will say that he would love as the working week to have 2 days of work a day instead of 5. The school boy, no matter the age ... is not feeling free. Years ago ... when he was not in school ... he felt the freedom of doing only what he wanted to do. The employee from the corporation, even if he knows that he is paid very, very well ... he is not feeling free either. But why?! Well ... cause the society is teaching us ... somehow by force ... to live in ... “prisons”. Now let me give you another example. Let’s assume the case of a businessman, that already had success, has a beautiful house, has money, a good company, a wife, beautiful kids .... basically everything. And ... still ... if you ask him if he is happy ... he will only reply that a piece from the puzzle is missing. I know lots of businessmen that have a great success ... and even if they have everything ... almost all of them have a mistress that is completing their lives. It’s a non sense ... i know ... cause most of them have the perfect life scenario. An amazing house. A amazing car ... or cars. A beautiful wife. Very nice children. ... and?! Why this nonsense?! Why does a person look for something else when already has the perfect life?! Well ... cause what we call ... perfection ... is only a dogmatic way of seeing life. The missing piece from the puzzle is the mistress ... that makes him feel loved in a totally different way. She makes him be ... a free person. A hobby would make the school boy and even the employee from the corporation ... to love what is doing ... and also feel free ... enjoying the present activity. You see ... no matter what path we chose in life ... the moment when we forget about the dogmatic path of living ... we feel the freedom. We feel alive. Our actions ... will look like a total nonsense to the others ... but we will be happy. The human being is looking for perfection ... but the happiness is not found in there. The dogmatism will never help us to ... be us. But ... on the path of discovering ... the real path ... at least we will have the guts to ... dream ... about the real freedom.

SPIRITUAL GARBAGE AND OUR ILLUSORY BLINDNESS
SPIRITUAL GARBAGE AND OUR ILLUSORY BLINDNESS

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 104

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Today i would dare to define all our negative emotions as … spiritual garbage. We could speak about … sadness, shame, helplessness, anger, vulnerability, embarrassment, disappointment, and frustration … and many other issues … which bring a negative impact on our lives. After studying the people from the stage of my life, but also people which i never met in person … I’ve realized that many times the life itself … just sucks … because we allow to be connected and also be dominated… by lots of negative emotions. We accept … into our souls … ugly energies … which have a huge impact on us … on short and long term. And … we not even pay attention to those details. We ignore … the impact. We ignore that something which today looks so, so unimportant… sooner or later will have full control … on ourselves. Yes … truth be told … we are ignorants. We see this dance of contradictory emotions … that is actually controlling our lives … as normality. We not even dare to think of such a concept as …. spiritual garbage. But … you know why?! Cause … everyone … let us believe that this is … normal. And … yes … it’s normal to be surrounded… by garbage. That …. this is part of life. I smile in front of such perceptions. Then … i laugh of myself. I realize … how i’ve wasted my life … allowing myself to have inside myself an universe dominated … by negativity. And … changing all … became … just … a decision … but i was too coward to accept this ugly concept of … spiritual garbage. Even … if all was so, so obvious.

DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED ... a way of wasting our lives
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED ... a way of wasting our lives

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 85

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Maybe life is too short to waste it with … useless things. Maybe it’s time to start meditating more. To analyze our behavior … but also the one of the people around us. To pay attention to the impact of influences over our lives … but also on the lives of others. Understand that … domination … no matter of its character… positive or negative …. It’s a concept that we should not allow it to become real. And we should also be aware of how a simple small influence … that is repeated on and on and on … could become … dominance …. without even realizing.

The Invisible Walls of Dannemora
The Invisible Walls of Dannemora

Author: Michael Blaine

Publisher: Gaudium

Published: 2020-05-19

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ISBN-13: 9781592110438

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The infamous Clinton Correctional Facility in Dannemora, New York, in 2015 became the site of one of the most famous prison breaks in modern American history. However, the conditions that made possible the notorious escape and the massive manhunt that ensued had been developing for many years prior. Having earned the nickname of "Little Siberia", the brutal winters contributed to the already depressing façade of the facility. During the long, dark hours, the wind howled outside and sounded like ghosts haunting the halls of the prison. Dannemora had a proud past. Every employee chose to work there and there was always a transfer list of staff hoping to work there. It was a hard prison for hard criminals. Having housed the likes of mobster Charlie "Lucky" Luciano, "Son of Sam" David Berkowitz, Rappers Tupac Shakur, and Ol' Dirty Bastard, and countless other infamous criminals, the staff at the Clinton Correctional Facility knew how to handle even the toughest of men. Like most prisons, Clinton was a place of routine. Each day was very much like day before. It was a big, clunking machine that simply ran each day unless someone in the administration used poor judgement and tried to implement an unsafe change in policy or targeted the wrong staff member. The author, Michael H. Blaine spent a career at the Clinton Correctional Facility. Having been an Officer, Sergeant, and Lieutenant, his story reveals the changes he observed and what he experienced at each rank he earned. Refusing to compromise his principles and sickened by the downward spiral that Clinton was experiencing, he retired less than 10 1/2 months before the first successful escape at Dannemora on June 6, 2015. This new book reveals the inner workings of this massive prison. It is the first look inside at what it was like to work at the Clinton Correctional Facility, its effects on those who spent time there on both sides of the bars, revealing why nobody escapes the Invisible Walls of Dannemora.

Hell Is a Very Small Place
Hell Is a Very Small Place

Author: Jean Casella

Publisher: New Press, The

Published: 2014-11-11

Total Pages: 241

ISBN-13: 1620971380

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“An unforgettable look at the peculiar horrors and humiliations involved in solitary confinement” from the prisoners who have survived it (New York Review of Books). On any given day, the United States holds more than eighty-thousand people in solitary confinement, a punishment that—beyond fifteen days—has been denounced as a form of cruel and degrading treatment by the UN Special Rapporteur on Torture. Now, in a book that will add a startling new dimension to the debates around human rights and prison reform, former and current prisoners describe the devastating effects of isolation on their minds and bodies, the solidarity expressed between individuals who live side by side for years without ever meeting one another face to face, the ever-present specters of madness and suicide, and the struggle to maintain hope and humanity. As Chelsea Manning wrote from her own solitary confinement cell, “The personal accounts by prisoners are some of the most disturbing that I have ever read.” These firsthand accounts are supplemented by the writing of noted experts, exploring the psychological, legal, ethical, and political dimensions of solitary confinement. “Do we really think it makes sense to lock so many people alone in tiny cells for twenty-three hours a day, for months, sometimes for years at a time? That is not going to make us safer. That’s not going to make us stronger.” —President Barack Obama “Elegant but harrowing.” —San Francisco Chronicle “A potent cry of anguish from men and women buried way down in the hole.” —Kirkus Reviews

I WAS THE PRISONER … BUT ALSO THE GUARDIAN
I WAS THE PRISONER … BUT ALSO THE GUARDIAN

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian G Dumitru

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Total Pages: 108

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Sometimes doing nothing … is the best path to follow I was chasing for success for a long, long time. I could even define those times as an eternity and i still can’t realize …. how could i be such an idiot to follow this path … for so long. But that’s not all. I actually followed lots of other pathless paths so many times … that i could define myself as an expert into those things. Later on …. analyzing with honesty all what was going on … i somehow realized that i was the prisoner of those situations … but also the guardian that was keeping me there. I was not allowing myself to stop … going to nowhere …. All what i was doing was to change a pathless path with another one and another on … and … Well … time did not changed anything at all. Even if i was feeling the fact that something was wrong … that part of myself that was acting as a guarding … was keeping myself the prisoner of an … ugly life. Time was passing … and again nothing changed. It looked like i was changing the direction … but anywhere i was going … it was still going to … nowhere. But one day …. having enough of going to the left and to the right …. and finding no real good result for my soul … i decided to do something that i never did before … and that was …. simple start doing …. nothing. The answer was so damn simple … I had to stop …. the chaos. To stop … chasing for illusory desires. And to think about doing … nothing … for a while … disconnecting from anything means … pathless paths … Allowing myself … at least … to stop feeling like a prisoner …even if i was living in a prison with invisible walls. Stop being the prisoner … but also the guardian. Stop doing that … on and on and on. Doing nothing became … a better scenario. So … i started doing that. And guess what?! Little by little … my life started to change. The pathless paths disappeared… or i should say that were replaced … by paths with a better meaning for my life. I’ve re evaluated everything … ignoring the 2 contradictory roles i was playing all the time … So …. drinking my coffee into a lovely place … meditating more … and taking the decision to connect only to the beautiful vibes from my life … became probably the best option i could have in mind all the time. The chaos itself did not disappeared … but … it was not anymore … the main part of my life. The pathless paths became … lessons of life. And doing nothing …. which was actually the habit of stopping the time and enjoying life … became more … a hobby. The guardian did not disappeared completely … and neither the prisoner… but i took the liberty of ignoring those roles.

THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION
THE ILLUSION … OF BEING PART OF AN ILLUSION

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 131

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Identifying the illusion is not enough. But smiling is sometimes the only … option. You see … when we connect to people, we also connect to their inner worlds. And we see so, so many ideas, emotions, perceptions … such a large spectrum … that we don’t really understand most of the times. Sometimes … we ignore them. Sometimes .. we connect to those universes .. believing they are real and we somehow become part of them. No one ever told us … that we don’t have to believe that something is … real. We could simple look at the image from the front of our eyes … just as we look at a beautiful painting, asking ourselves what is the meaning that the artist had in mind when created that scene?! And now the question is …. who is the artist behind the illusion?! What is the meaning of the illusion?! How do we recognize this illusion if it said that all we see it’s an illusion?! How can we get out of such stories, repeated on and on and on?! Is there any theory that we should know regarding the illusions?! What do we understand seeing and connecting to the human being spectrum?! Well … i simple smile. I used to analyze and define a lot my life and everything that happened around myself, until the day when i realized i am a prisoner … But it was all so weird … cause i was the prisoner, the guardian of the prison, but also the prison itself. I was all … so how could i get rid of that?! And all the time i was remembering … that it’s all and illusion. That is the moment when i had the power to smile again … but being so silly, it all took such a long time to realize it. I was spending my life in a prison with invisible walls, jumping from my illusions to other’s people illusory worlds. I was simple replacing an illusion with another illusion … believing i escaped from the illusion. And still … I was having a weird feeling … that i was living the illusion of being part of an illusion. Each time a new story. And a new one. … and another one.

Beyond Invisible Walls
Beyond Invisible Walls

Author: Jacob D. Lindy

Publisher: Routledge

Published: 2013-05-13

Total Pages: 276

ISBN-13: 1134946333

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When the Berlin Wall fell in 1989, Westerners watched those who had survived the era of Soviet trauma emerge into what we hoped would be the exhilarating light of freedom. What we have witnessed, however, is a slow and painful process of progression and regression, of hope and disillusionment, of unexpected psychological barriers: invisible walls that block the progress we had hoped for. In Beyond Invisible Walls, East European therapists, themselves, draw a compelling picture of the waves of trauma that their people endured, the institutions of trauma that remained well after Stalin's era, and their impact on survivors and their families. They describe the psychological remnants of those years: walls that confine people by unconsciously preserving old adaptations to political terror, walls that divide one part of the mind from another, and walls that rise between one generation and the next. These therapists' stories allow us a striking glimpse into how patients' trauma evokes the therapists' own wounds; how both speaker and empathic listener find their way to a healing process, how the two begin to dismantle these invisible walls.

The weird hobby of being a lost soul … an amazing journey on beautiful pathless paths
The weird hobby of being a lost soul … an amazing journey on beautiful pathless paths

Author: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Publisher: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

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Total Pages: 131

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Experiencing a path that takes us to nowhere … it’s not useless. We should understand and accept that not the destination is important … cause life has no real destination. …but what it is really important is maybe the experience itself. Good … bad … however it is … it all has the meaning to reveal to us the dance of energies beyond the scene of reality… making us aware that all is … energy. Into the end … maybe there is only one conclusion … but i hate saying it. Well … we could chose to connect just on the beautiful vibrations of life … and totally ignore negativity. But … we can’t. I … can’t … Maybe … i’ll never be able to do it. So … life continues …. revealing new and new experiences… and i still don’t really understand the energies … …. the amazing dance of energies. Looking … like a cocktail of …. elements … which induces us the illusion of the abstract. I smile … and i stop being annoyed. I allow to life to continue … and i finally accept that in fact … life would continue anyway … with or without my approval. And … all i have to do is just to experience it … with or without joy … even if i know that the only purpose is to evolve spiritually. So ….

Behind Prison Walls
Behind Prison Walls

Author: Corvalis G. Hodges

Publisher: Xlibris Corporation

Published: 2009-04-20

Total Pages: 146

ISBN-13: 1462843999

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Behind Prison Walls: Inmate Number 27773-016 is my expression and experience in prison. During my wilderness experience, I had to rely on God like never before. It was my breaking point; God was then able to speak to me where I wasn't able to run. I tried boxing with God, but I soon realized my arms where to short to box with God, so I begin to let go and let God.