I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die

I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die

Author: Sarah J. Robinson

Publisher: WaterBrook

Published: 2021-05-11

Total Pages: 257

ISBN-13: 0593193539

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A compassionate, shame-free guide for your darkest days “A one-of-a-kind book . . . to read for yourself or give to a struggling friend or loved one without the fear that depression and suicidal thoughts will be minimized, medicalized or over-spiritualized.”—Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church What happens when loving Jesus doesn’t cure you of depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts? You might be crushed by shame over your mental illness, only to be told by well-meaning Christians to “choose joy” and “pray more.” So you beg God to take away the pain, but nothing eases the ache inside. As darkness lingers and color drains from your world, you’re left wondering if God has abandoned you. You just want a way out. But there’s hope. In I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson offers a healthy, practical, and shame-free guide for Christians struggling with mental illness. With unflinching honesty, Sarah shares her story of battling depression and fighting to stay alive despite toxic theology that made her afraid to seek help outside the church. Pairing her own story with scriptural insights, mental health research, and simple practices, Sarah helps you reconnect with the God who is present in our deepest anguish and discover that you are worth everything it takes to get better. Beautifully written and full of hard-won wisdom, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die offers a path toward a rich, hope-filled life in Christ, even when healing doesn’t look like what you expect.


260 Drum Machine Patterns

260 Drum Machine Patterns

Author: Rene-Pierre Bardet

Publisher: Hal Leonard Publishing Corporation

Published: 1987

Total Pages: 0

ISBN-13: 9780881888874

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"This book is a supplement to the first volume of Drum Machine Patterns. In it you will find over 260 rhythm patterns and breaks. These are original patterns that can be programmed easily on any drum machine. This book contains the rhythms most often used in contemporary music, and many patterns incorporate flams, to be used on the latest generation of drum machines."--Amazon


Useless Miracle

Useless Miracle

Author: Barry Schechter

Publisher: Melville House

Published: 2021-01-12

Total Pages: 337

ISBN-13: 1612198171

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A classic, smart comedy in which a college professor attains mankind's oldest dream: the ability to fly...sort of... George Entmen just turned forty, and he can't complain. He is a respected hermeneutics professor, beloved by friends and family, and ready to drift quietly into tenured middle age. But then, he discovers he can fly. Sure, he can only fly very, very slowly, and he only flies three or four inches above the ground . . . But why does this nonetheless amazing phenomenon drive so many people into a rage? Why do he and his family find themselves dodging livid magicians, scheming billionairesses, and, perhaps worst of all, angry hermeneuticians? Beneath all the chaos, his gift has to have a meaning. But to find it, George needs to understand one thing his friend and guru keeps telling him: "You're not flying, you're being flown."


I Was Born for This

I Was Born for This

Author: Alice Oseman

Publisher: Scholastic Inc.

Published: 2022-10-18

Total Pages: 307

ISBN-13: 1338830953

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From the bestselling creator of HEARTSTOPPER and LOVELESS, a deeply funny and deeply moving exploration of identity, friendship, and fame. For Angel Rahimi life is about one thing: The Ark -- a boy band that's taking the world by storm. Being part of The Ark's fandom has given her everything she loves -- her friend Juliet, her dreams, her place in the world. Her Muslim family doesn't understand the band's allure -- but Angel feels there are things about her they'll never understand. Jimmy Kaga-Ricci owes everything to The Ark. He's their frontman -- and playing in a band with his mates is all he ever dreamed of doing, even it only amplifies his anxiety. The fans are very accepting that he's trans -- but they also keep shipping with him with his longtime friend and bandmate, Rowan. But Jimmy and Rowan are just friends -- and Rowan has a secret girlfriend the fans can never know about. Dreams don't always turn out the way you think and when Jimmy and Angel are unexpectedly thrust together, they find out how strange and surprising facing up to reality can be. A funny, wise, and heartbreakingly true coming of age novel. I Was Born for This is a stunning reflection of modern teenage life, and the power of believing in something -- especially yourself.


The Voices We Carry

The Voices We Carry

Author: J. S. Park

Publisher: Moody Publishers

Published: 2020-05-05

Total Pages: 283

ISBN-13: 0802498817

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Reclaim Your Headspace and Find Your One True Voice As a hospital chaplain, J.S. Park encountered hundreds of patients at the edge of life and death, listening as they urgently shared their stories, confessions, and final words. J.S. began to identify patterns in his patients’ lives—patterns he also saw in his own life. He began to see that the events and traumas we experience throughout life become deafening voices that remain within us, even when the events are far in the past. He was surprised to find that in hearing the voices of his patients, he began to identify his own voices and all the ways they could both harm and heal. In The Voices We Carry, J.S. draws from his experiences as a hospital chaplain to present the Voices Model. This model explores the four internal voices of self-doubt, pride, people-pleasing, and judgment, and the four external voices of trauma, guilt, grief, and family dynamics. He also draws from his Asian-American upbringing to examine the challenges of identity and feeling “other.” J.S. outlines how to wrestle with our voices, and even befriend them, how to find our authentic voice in a world of mixed messages, and how to empower those who are voiceless. Filled with evidence-based research, spiritual and psychological insights, and stories of patient encounters, The Voices We Carry is an inspiring memoir of unexpected growth, humor, and what matters most. For those wading through a world of clamor and noise, this is a guide to find your clear, steady voice.


The Painted Drum

The Painted Drum

Author: Louise Erdrich

Publisher: Harper Collins

Published: 2009-10-13

Total Pages: 306

ISBN-13: 0061748870

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“Haunted and haunting. . . . With fearlessness and humility, in a narrative that flows more artfully than ever between destruction and rebirth, Erdrich has opened herself to possibilities beyond what we merely see—to the dead alive and busy, to the breath of trees and the souls of wolves—and inspires readers to open their hearts to these mysteries as well.”— Washington Post Book World From the author of the National Book Award Winner The Round House, Louise Erdrich's breathtaking, lyrical novel of a priceless Ojibwe artifact and the effect it has had on those who have come into contact with it over the years. While appraising the estate of a New Hampshire family descended from a North Dakota Indian agent, Faye Travers is startled to discover a rare moose skin and cedar drum fashioned long ago by an Ojibwe artisan. And so begins an illuminating journey both backward and forward in time, following the strange passage of a powerful yet delicate instrument, and revealing the extraordinary lives it has touched and defined. Compelling and unforgettable, Louise Erdrich's Painted Drum explores the often-fraught relationship between mothers and daughters, the strength of family, and the intricate rhythms of grief with all the grace, wit, and startling beauty that characterizes this acclaimed author's finest work.


Losing Grip

Losing Grip

Author: Darcy Maffenini

Publisher: Lulu.com

Published: 2013-04-07

Total Pages: 192

ISBN-13: 1304193306

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Two years ago, Lexi Harper made a mistake. As a high school freshman, she dated Justin Longo, the most sought out senior at her school. Now two years later, Lexi is a junior in high school and still being reminded every day of what she considers the biggest mistake of her life. Lexi finds herself depressed and questioning her self-worth as her life continues on its downward spiral. Then comes along the new boy, Shane West. Though he's got his fair share of problems, he's a relatively happy guy, who tries to see the good in everything and everyone. Can Shane help Lexi find happiness again? Will the two establish a friendship? Will he find out what everyone else already knows? And if he does, will he desert her like everyone else? Can Lexi survive her junior year, or will she fall over the edge? Follow Lexi as she beings to lose her grip on life, while trying to survive the hardships of high school and bullying. Maybe, just maybe, Lexi can make it out with her sanity.


Heaven's Symphony

Heaven's Symphony

Author: Steve Swanson

Publisher: Destiny Image Publishers

Published: 2015-01-20

Total Pages: 111

ISBN-13: 0768405408

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Worship is more than music…it is your invitation to a divine encounter! When you worship, more is going on than meets the eye. You take your place among a heavenly symphony that has been offering up praise since the dawn of time. Discover how you were uniquely created for supernatural experiences in God’s presence—no matter who you are or what you have been designed to do! In fact, how you were made often reveals how God desires to encounter you. The artist sees God in colors, shapes, visual contrasts, and dimensions. The mathematician perceives Heaven’s activity in the precision and fluidity of measurements, movements, forces, proportions, and vectors. The writer senses divine Presence in the poetry of perfectly selected words. God has created you for an intimate encounter. Your distinct personality, talent, and destiny allows you to sense the different colors of His activity in your life and in the world. Receive a fresh vision of your destiny, start seeing the supernatural activity of Heaven released through worship, and experience God in ways you never dreamed possible!


More of God

More of God

Author: R.T. Kendall

Publisher: Charisma Media

Published: 2019-02-05

Total Pages: 244

ISBN-13: 1629995851

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This book will train you to seek God first and His righteousness before seeking healing, restoration, good finances, and other needs.