I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die

I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die

Author: Sarah J. Robinson

Publisher: WaterBrook

Published: 2021-05-11

Total Pages: 257

ISBN-13: 0593193539

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A compassionate, shame-free guide for your darkest days “A one-of-a-kind book . . . to read for yourself or give to a struggling friend or loved one without the fear that depression and suicidal thoughts will be minimized, medicalized or over-spiritualized.”—Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church What happens when loving Jesus doesn’t cure you of depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts? You might be crushed by shame over your mental illness, only to be told by well-meaning Christians to “choose joy” and “pray more.” So you beg God to take away the pain, but nothing eases the ache inside. As darkness lingers and color drains from your world, you’re left wondering if God has abandoned you. You just want a way out. But there’s hope. In I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson offers a healthy, practical, and shame-free guide for Christians struggling with mental illness. With unflinching honesty, Sarah shares her story of battling depression and fighting to stay alive despite toxic theology that made her afraid to seek help outside the church. Pairing her own story with scriptural insights, mental health research, and simple practices, Sarah helps you reconnect with the God who is present in our deepest anguish and discover that you are worth everything it takes to get better. Beautifully written and full of hard-won wisdom, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die offers a path toward a rich, hope-filled life in Christ, even when healing doesn’t look like what you expect.


How Far the Mountain

How Far the Mountain

Author: Robert K. Swisher Jr.

Publisher: Sunstone Press

Published: 2013-02-15

Total Pages: 142

ISBN-13: 1611391644

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"How Far The Mountain" is the story of a man, a woman, and a mountain. The woman, from the city, must go to the mountain to discover who she is after her husband's death from cancer. The man, a cowboy, must force himself to go to the mountain and make a shrine from the bones of 'Texas Lady,' the horse his wife was riding when she was killed by lightning. The mountain is only a mountain but, in itself, is the creator of stories more profound than any two peoples' needs. The woman, after her husband's death, is thrown into a world she does not understand. She forces herself to go alone to the mountain in an attempt to chase away the loneliness that tugs at the corners of her heart. The man has spent his life guiding people into the mountains. Now lost, after the mountain has killed his wife, and accompanied by his dog, Gypsy, he returns to the mountain to try and rid himself of the demons that control his every moment. The man and woman both have needs and desires, but life has destroyed their dreams. They both are desperately seeking love but they are afraid to reach out, fearing if they find love it will only end in another tragedy. The man and woman, unknown to each other, start from opposite sides of the mountain toward the same meadow. It is only by chance they see each other in the distance--one waves but one ignores it, afraid of the warmth from a wave. During the man and woman's exodus the mountain spins its history: stories of its beginning, tales of miners, trees so large they touch the heavens, Indians, outlaws, gamblers, dreamers, great bears, thundering storms, bones and circling ravens. "How Far The Mountain" is a quest for the human spirit and a tribute to the earth's healing magic. A novel that will leave you warm and knowing that no matter what tragedy life brings, there is always hope. ROBERT K. SWISHER JR. has been a ranch foreman and a mountain guide. He knows the outdoors and western history, and has successfully combined these interests in stories, poems and novels. He is also the author of "The Land," "Fatal Destiny," "Only Magic," "The Last Narrow Gauge Train Robbery," "Last Day In Paradise" and "Love Lies Bleeding," all from Sunstone Press. Of "The Land," "Publishers Weekly" said: "If there were a category of historical romances written for men, this moving novel would fit the bill."


Jesus Christ the Counterfeit Christian Messiah - Incorporating "What Really Happened in the Garden of Eden" and God, Genes and Evil

Jesus Christ the Counterfeit Christian Messiah - Incorporating

Author: Lionel Attwell

Publisher: Lulu.com

Published: 2007-08-01

Total Pages: 320

ISBN-13: 1847998631

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Lionel Attwell, a former highly successful national newspaper reporter, spent seven years investigating the Christian Church and discovered that it was built on a premeditated perversion of the original Hebrew/Greek Scriptures ingeniously mutated to fit its warped agenda and erroneous doctrines. In the process it created a pagan counterfeit Christianized Messiah. His research also reveals the incredible events which actually occured in the Garden of Eden: the forbidden fruit was a narcotic and aphrodisiac; when "high" Eve was seduced by Satan and gave birth to a child with mutated genes subsequently inherited by the whole of mankind. He also explains the causes of human disasters and suffering. This book will change your life.


Smile of the Rictus

Smile of the Rictus

Author: Julius Talen

Publisher: First Edition Design Pub.

Published: 2016-01-11

Total Pages: 125

ISBN-13: 1506901301

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A detective with a secret... A serial killer posing as a superhero... A lie with the form of a man... Question Your Reality. Chief inspector Adelaide Shaw is on the heels of a vigilante who has enchanted the public with his supernatural performances and been declared the world's first superhero. Not convinced, Adelaide believes him nothing more than a serial killer and turns to the expertise of the excommunicated street magician and tricksmith Oliver Whitaker. Together, they will uncover the truth and enter a world where nothing is as it seems, bringing to light the two-hundred-year-old legacy of The Rictus: royal magician to Queen Victoria and the only person in history to be recognized as immortal. Now, with London as their stage, and the people there audience; these two masters of illusion will perform the acts of their lives and when they're finished nothing will ever be the same again. Keywords: Mystery, Detective, Crime, Heroine, Magic, Illusion, Superhero, Conspiracy, Adventure, London.


When Breath Becomes Air

When Breath Becomes Air

Author: Paul Kalanithi

Publisher: Random House

Published: 2016-01-12

Total Pages: 258

ISBN-13: 0812988418

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#1 NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • PULITZER PRIZE FINALIST • This inspiring, exquisitely observed memoir finds hope and beauty in the face of insurmountable odds as an idealistic young neurosurgeon attempts to answer the question What makes a life worth living? NAMED ONE OF PASTE’S BEST MEMOIRS OF THE DECADE • NAMED ONE OF THE BEST BOOKS OF THE YEAR BY The New York Times Book Review • People • NPR • The Washington Post • Slate • Harper’s Bazaar • Time Out New York • Publishers Weekly • BookPage Finalist for the PEN Center USA Literary Award in Creative Nonfiction and the Books for a Better Life Award in Inspirational Memoir At the age of thirty-six, on the verge of completing a decade’s worth of training as a neurosurgeon, Paul Kalanithi was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer. One day he was a doctor treating the dying, and the next he was a patient struggling to live. And just like that, the future he and his wife had imagined evaporated. When Breath Becomes Air chronicles Kalanithi’s transformation from a naïve medical student “possessed,” as he wrote, “by the question of what, given that all organisms die, makes a virtuous and meaningful life” into a neurosurgeon at Stanford working in the brain, the most critical place for human identity, and finally into a patient and new father confronting his own mortality. What makes life worth living in the face of death? What do you do when the future, no longer a ladder toward your goals in life, flattens out into a perpetual present? What does it mean to have a child, to nurture a new life as another fades away? These are some of the questions Kalanithi wrestles with in this profoundly moving, exquisitely observed memoir. Paul Kalanithi died in March 2015, while working on this book, yet his words live on as a guide and a gift to us all. “I began to realize that coming face to face with my own mortality, in a sense, had changed nothing and everything,” he wrote. “Seven words from Samuel Beckett began to repeat in my head: ‘I can’t go on. I’ll go on.’” When Breath Becomes Air is an unforgettable, life-affirming reflection on the challenge of facing death and on the relationship between doctor and patient, from a brilliant writer who became both.


The Smile on My Face

The Smile on My Face

Author: Cheri Reeder

Publisher: Reeder Press

Published: 2019-10-01

Total Pages: 208

ISBN-13: 0997833602

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A Relationship Memoir With a Self-Help Twist. A non-fiction relationship and sexual freedom self-help book with transparent intimate personal stories that demonstrate real life lessons. Workbook is included after each of the 28 chapters. The author is a natural, functional medicine nurse who gives life hacks on finding inner peace and an authentic outer smile in the areas of physical, mental, emotional, and relationship health. The Smile on My Face is a series of stories with Cheri, a holistic healer, living an alternative approach to open relationships. Cheri’s transparent process reveals belief-shattering insights as she navigates: · Releasing sexual shame · Responsible communication · Polyamory = more love · Attachment vs. connection · Untangling jealousy · Holistic health · Choosing freedom over suffering · Expanding the capacity to feel bliss