Beautiful Chaos

Beautiful Chaos

Author: Devon Mccormack

Publisher:

Published: 2018-10-09

Total Pages: 422

ISBN-13: 9781642046632

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SILAS My home is my sanctuary. Or is it my prison? Some days it's hard to tell. I've confined myself behind these walls for protection. I have my reasons, but that doesn't change the profound loneliness I've discovered in the process. Then one day I find myself drifting toward the window to see him. Corey Marshall, my new neighbor. Quiet, reserved, and cute as can be. He infects my thoughts, becomes the image I fantasize about. I want to taste his lips, smell his scent...feel what it's like to be inside him. And soon, watching becomes exchanging gifts and messages, which becomes so much more. It's wrong to want this as badly as I do, but I can't help myself. I crave him so desperately. It's hard to tell if what we're doing is going to make me lose my mind or change my entire world, but it's too late to turn back now... COREY I've never been quite right. Too high or too low. Pain is my constant companion...at the hands of my abusive ex, and often from myself. The sweet relief is only temporary, but in those moments, it's like I can finally breathe. Then I meet him. Silas Rizner calms the chaotic storms inside me. He makes me feel loved, treasured, even when I don't deserve it. I cherish the moments we share--cooking, cuddling, and when Silas reads to me until I fall asleep. When he's inside me, it's the only time in my life I've ever felt complete. Silas becomes the glue that holds me together, that bandages my scars. Inside the walls of his home, we're almost safe, but our demons are always there, waiting to break free. We're a mess. We're broken, chaotic, beautiful; we're in love. But not even love can slay our monsters. No, only we can do that. Unless our monsters destroy us first. TRIGGERS: Self-harm, depression, anxiety, mentions of past domestic violence. *While the sexual situations depicted in Beautiful Chaos are imperative to the characters' development throughout the course of the novel, readers are advised to peruse the "Dear Reader" letter at the beginning of the book to help them make an informed decision about whether this particular story will be to their tastes. This letter can be viewed in the downloadable sample or by using the "Look Inside" feature found on the title's product page.


Beautiful Chaos

Beautiful Chaos

Author: Kami Garcia

Publisher: Little, Brown Books for Young Readers

Published: 2011-10-18

Total Pages: 374

ISBN-13: 0316193062

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The third book in the New York Times bestselling series, perfect for fans of Cassandra Clare and Maggie Stiefvater! Ethan Wate thought he was getting used to the strange, impossible events happening in Gatlin, his small Southern town. But now that Ethan and Lena have returned home from the Great Barrier, strange and impossible have taken on new meanings. Swarms of locusts, record-breaking heat, and devastating storms ravage Gatlin as Ethan and Lena struggle to understand the impact of Lena's Claiming. Even Lena's family of powerful Supernaturals is affected -- and their abilities begin to dangerously misfire. As time passes, one question becomes clear: What -- or who -- will need to be sacrificed to save Gatlin? For Ethan, the chaos is a frightening but welcome distraction. He's being haunted in his dreams again, but this time it's not Lena -- and the mysterious figure is following him out of his dreams and into his everyday life. Worse, Ethan is gradually losing pieces of himself -- forgetting names, phone numbers, even memories. He doesn't know why, and he's afraid to ask. Sometimes there's no going back. And this time there won't be a happy ending.


The Planthunter

The Planthunter

Author: Georgina Reid

Publisher: Timber Press

Published: 2019-04-30

Total Pages: 257

ISBN-13: 1604699647

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An exciting and refreshing call to arms, The Planthunter is a new generation of gardening book for a new generation of gardener that encourages readers to fall in love with the natural world by falling in love with plants.


Beautiful Chaos

Beautiful Chaos

Author: Robert M. Drake

Publisher:

Published: 2016

Total Pages: 0

ISBN-13: 9781449484781

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Chaos is not pretty. It is like feeling a hundred things, hearing a hundred voices, and somewhere in the riot we tend to lose ourselves and lose direction in our heads. This book is the truth. It is everything we have been feeling and running away from for so long. In this powerful collection of short poems, Drake explores themes of love, loss, pain, and loneliness in an effort to make sense of a chaotic world.


Beautiful Creatures

Beautiful Creatures

Author: Kami Garcia

Publisher: Little, Brown Books for Young Readers

Published: 2013-01-08

Total Pages: 343

ISBN-13: 0316231681

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There were no surprises in Gatlin County. We were pretty much the epicenter of the middle of nowhere. At least, that's what I thought. Turns out, I couldn't have been more wrong. There was a curse. There was a girl. And in the end, there was a grave. Lena Duchannes is unlike anyone the small Southern town of Gatlin has ever seen, and she's struggling to conceal her power and a curse that has haunted her family for generations. But even within the overgrown gardens, murky swamps and crumbling graveyards of the forgotten South, a secret cannot stay hidden forever. Ethan Wate, who has been counting the months until he can escape from Gatlin, is haunted by dreams of a beautiful girl he has never met. When Lena moves into the town's oldest and most infamous plantation, Ethan is inexplicably drawn to her and determined to uncover the connection between them. In a town with no surprises, one secret could change everything.


Computers, Pattern, Chaos and Beauty

Computers, Pattern, Chaos and Beauty

Author: Clifford A. Pickover

Publisher: Courier Corporation

Published: 2012-07-12

Total Pages: 458

ISBN-13: 0486151611

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Fractals and chaos theory lead to startling graphics in this book by a renowned scientist, inventor, and artist, who coordinates information from disparate fields. Over 275 illustrations, 29 in color.


Killer Beauty

Killer Beauty

Author: Eva Chance

Publisher: Ink Spark Press

Published: 2021-11-06

Total Pages: 318

ISBN-13: 9781990338229

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I'm the girl you'll never see coming. Blink and you're dead, another target checked off my list. But one night everything in my carefully ordered existence falls apart. A bloodbath and a car crash later, I find myself in the grasp of four gorgeous, intimidating men. Are my captors cops like they claim or something far more sinister? They sure know how to bend the law. And seeing how skillfully they handle a gun or a knife, I can't help wondering what their hands would feel like all over me. But I have vengeance to wreak, and no man, no matter how powerful, is going to keep me caged for long. They think they've caught a wounded little mouse. How could they know they've brought a killer into their home? I'll bide my time, learn all I can, and when I'm ready to strike... They'll never know what hit them. *Killer Beauty is the first in a new gritty contemporary romance series from bestselling author Eva Chase (writing as Eva Chance) and Harlow King. No major triggers, just hot murderously-inclined men, a deadly heroine out for revenge, and an enemies-to-lovers romance where the girl gets all the guys. Prepare for bloody chaos!*


The Computational Beauty of Nature

The Computational Beauty of Nature

Author: Gary William Flake

Publisher: MIT Press

Published: 2000-01-27

Total Pages: 524

ISBN-13: 9780262561273

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Gary William Flake develops in depth the simple idea that recurrent rules can produce rich and complicated behaviors. In this book Gary William Flake develops in depth the simple idea that recurrent rules can produce rich and complicated behaviors. Distinguishing "agents" (e.g., molecules, cells, animals, and species) from their interactions (e.g., chemical reactions, immune system responses, sexual reproduction, and evolution), Flake argues that it is the computational properties of interactions that account for much of what we think of as "beautiful" and "interesting." From this basic thesis, Flake explores what he considers to be today's four most interesting computational topics: fractals, chaos, complex systems, and adaptation. Each of the book's parts can be read independently, enabling even the casual reader to understand and work with the basic equations and programs. Yet the parts are bound together by the theme of the computer as a laboratory and a metaphor for understanding the universe. The inspired reader will experiment further with the ideas presented to create fractal landscapes, chaotic systems, artificial life forms, genetic algorithms, and artificial neural networks.


Doctor Who: Beautiful Chaos

Doctor Who: Beautiful Chaos

Author: Gary Russell

Publisher: Random House

Published: 2013-03-07

Total Pages: 258

ISBN-13: 1448140242

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Wilfred Mott is very happy: his granddaughter, Donna, is back home, catching up with family and gossiping about her journeys, and he has just discovered a new star and had it named after him. He takes the Tenth Doctor with him to the naming ceremony. But the Doctor soon discovers something else new, and worryingly bright, in the heavens – something that is heading for Earth. It’s an ancient force from the Dark Times. And it is very, very angry... An adventure featuring the Tenth Doctor as played by David Tennant and his companion Donna


The Beauty in Breaking

The Beauty in Breaking

Author: Michele Harper

Publisher: Penguin

Published: 2021-06-29

Total Pages: 305

ISBN-13: 0525537392

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A NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER A New York Times Notable Book “Riveting, heartbreaking, sometimes difficult, always inspiring.” —The New York Times Book Review “An incredibly moving memoir about what it means to be a doctor.” —Ellen Pompeo As seen/heard on Fresh Air, The Daily Show with Trevor Noah, NBC Nightly News, MSNBC, Weekend Edition, and more An emergency room physician explores how a life of service to others taught her how to heal herself. Michele Harper is a female, African American emergency room physician in a profession that is overwhelmingly male and white. Brought up in Washington, D.C., in a complicated family, she went to Harvard, where she met her husband. They stayed together through medical school until two months before she was scheduled to join the staff of a hospital in central Philadelphia, when he told her he couldn’t move with her. Her marriage at an end, Harper began her new life in a new city, in a new job, as a newly single woman. In the ensuing years, as Harper learned to become an effective ER physician, bringing insight and empathy to every patient encounter, she came to understand that each of us is broken—physically, emotionally, psychically. How we recognize those breaks, how we try to mend them, and where we go from there are all crucial parts of the healing process. The Beauty in Breaking is the poignant true story of Harper’s journey toward self-healing. Each of the patients Harper writes about taught her something important about recuperation and recovery. How to let go of fear even when the future is murky: How to tell the truth when it’s simpler to overlook it. How to understand that compassion isn’t the same as justice. As she shines a light on the systemic disenfranchisement of the patients she treats as they struggle to maintain their health and dignity, Harper comes to understand the importance of allowing ourselves to make peace with the past as we draw support from the present. In this hopeful, moving, and beautiful book, she passes along the precious, necessary lessons that she has learned as a daughter, a woman, and a physician.